Broken But Back

First, I want to say how terribly I have missed all of you.  A huge hole is evident in my life right now and all of you help to fill it.  February was a crappy month for so many reasons.  My Uncle's Memorial, my Aunt's surgery, and to top it all off, a huge life changing few days in my life.  I have seriously been through a huge mental and emotional marathon.  Because of all that I had to completely unplug from everything else and focus on what I could do to turn things around.  I wanted to just give up.  I've been through every emotion possible.  During all this I also had to give up running for a week or two.  Honestly, I was so stressed out that instead of it being a positive I might have just stressed myself and my body to the point of breaking.  I didn't want to risk it.  I have never been so scared and stressed in my life.

I know I feel like I'm leaving you all hanging but I don't feel like I can or should share the details of what went down.  Just know that I am 110% focused on my family right now and I think my efforts are paying off.  I have been changed though.  I can't go back to who I was before.  I'm trying my best to remain strong and focus on the positives.

I have been working out hard at the gym for the past two weeks on top of running on my treadmill.  It has been a huge step in feeling like myself again and getting back to my goals.  I have to keep it all balanced.  I'm still trying to work it all out.

I wanted to thank all of you who have reached out to me either here, Facebook, or by texting.  I can't begin to tell you how it feels to have real sincere friendships.  Some of you I have met and some I haven't.  Regardless of that, it means the same.  I have known people for years who I haven't heard a peep from.  I truly think of you as my family.  Your love, support, and companionship have meant the world to me and I have missed you more than I can say.  I wanted you all to know that I'm here and I'm working on getting things back in gear.

Julie posted this on my "Impossible Is Nothing" Facebook page.  So fitting.  Thank you!!!

“We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations.” 

~ Charles R. Swindoll .