Slacker

So the year hasn't started off quite like I had hoped or planned.  I have been running but not like I have in the past.  I'm quite frustrated with myself and life in general for being so hard right now.  There has been so much going on, I haven't been sleeping, and the stress level around here is extremely high.  I know that is no excuse and I'm really not trying to make any.  The bottom line is that if I wanted to run then I would find a way to do it.  

The body image department hasn't improved either.  After losing so much weight and knowing what it feels like to actually feel wonderful about myself-even with all it's flaws-gaining even a little weight messes with my mind.  I don't like it.  I don't like how I feel and it makes me unhappy and uncomfortable enough that it makes all the other stuff even less tolerable.  Once I can 100% commit myself to sticking to a better eating plan I know things will be fine.  It just sucks that my shakes and all the other healthy stuff cost way more than the food my family and everyone else is eating.  I've done it before though and I'm sure I will find a way again.